Britney Spears declared she had ‘failed as a mother’ while lashing out at HER parents for spending time with her boys without her in a rambling post on X on Friday.
Spears, who likened herself to ‘an angel,’ felt the need to confess her shortcomings after one of her sons told her he didn’t believe in God.
‘My son told me last week it was all science he didn’t personally believe in God … in that moment I believed I had failed as a mother because I know there is a Holy Spirit that sits high in the kingdom of heaven,’ adding that she has ‘been there’ and ‘felt it.’
Spears filed for divorce from her sons’ father, Kevin Federline, in November 2006, just eight weeks after welcoming their second child.
She pressed on by saying: ‘I wanna tell my kids and people in general that I’m sorry for my mistakes in the past.’
The Toxic hitmaker, who recently stepped out with a mystery man in Malibu, shared an old photo of sons Sean, 20, and Jayden, 19, running along a beach as toddlers.
Britney Spears declared she has ‘failed as a mother’ while lashing out at HER parents for spending time with her boys without her in a rambling post on X on Friday
Included in her post was an old picture of her sons, Sean, now 20, and Jayden, now 19, running along a beach
She claimed she found out five years ago that they had been ‘secretly taken to the beach’ by her now-estranged dad, Jamie Spears, and mom, Lynne Spears, without her knowledge or consent.
Spears was famously placed under court-ordered conservatorship in February 2008 after a series of public mental health crises, hospitalizations and intense media scrutiny.
She was largely controlled by her father during that time.
But 13 years later, Spears’ conservatorship ended in November 2021 following pressure from the #FreeBritney movement and Jamie’s suspension as conservator, in addition to the pop star’s own court testimony about the abuse she suffered while under her father’s control.
As her latest social media letter revealed, Spears is still not over the way Jamie and Lynne both pulled the wool over her eyes, as she sees it.
‘The whole summer … I look back now and I remember my dad not letting me go to a diner ever again to eat a hamburger with a new extremely cool friend I had found cuz all the attention I got from the paps after being held in my home for 4 months offended him,’ she vented.
‘The pictures I saw of my mom and dad in secret on the beach the whole summer with my children every weekend … I wondered why I wasn’t a part of their cool secret outings.
‘I felt demoralized to live in a country where it was accepted for people like my mom and dad to live secret lives with my children … It was demoralizing,’ she repeated, adding: ‘I honestly went to my knees and cried for two months.’
Spears, who likened herself to ‘an angel,’ felt the need to confess after one of her sons told her he didn’t believe in God
The mother-of-two said she knew ‘there is a Holy Spirit that sits high in the kingdom of heaven,’ adding that she has ‘been there’ and ‘felt it’; pictured with her boys in 2013
The Toxic hitmaker leveled blame and shame upon her own parents – pictured at court in 2012 for a case involving Spears’ self-described manager Sam Lufti
Spears claimed she found out five years ago that her sons had been ‘secretly taken to the beach’ by her parents
In 2008, Spears was famously placed under court-ordered conservatorship that was largely controlled by her father
Spears went on to wail that ‘I never got to be me’ and that she ‘used to be unbelievably intelligent’ before she was ‘brainwashed into an ignorant system where every g*****m person took advantage of me.’
She added: ‘I firmly believe I am an angel, and it hurts. Time is in a different realm when you’re an angel … I miss the excitement in my eyes being alive when I was younger, always so eager to please and hungry for life.’
The mother-of-two admitted this all happened a long time ago, but as she’s gotten older, she’s come to understand her ‘real value as a woman.’
‘I look back and say, “How the hell would a government allow that?”‘
‘I’ve cried so much. I’m extremely weak but through weakness they say you will find the most strength cuz you surrender and give it to God.’
She finished her lengthy diatribe by saying ‘we all want a hero or someone to look up to but we’re simply just people at the end of the day,’ adding: ‘We’re all stars in my eyes cuz I’m simply mamma now.
‘I’m simply here to give perspective openly because I feel I’ve been misunderstood in my life. I want to get closer to God and my heart in its most beautiful, spiritual way and have dreams again like I did when I used to go to Mexico !!!’
Spears previously admitted she had turned to arts and crafts after her ‘interesting’ year of rehab and legal drama.
Spears’ conservatorship ended in November 2021 following pressure from the #FreeBritney movement and the singer’s own court testimony about the abuse she suffered under her father’s control; pictured in 2006 with, L to R, dad Jamie, Spears, brother Bryan and mom Lynne
The singer was arrested in the evening of March 4 near her home in Ventura County, California, after police received an anonymous call about someone ‘traveling at high speeds and swerving’ on the road.
Spears pleaded guilty to reckless driving in connection with the incident, and was sentenced to 12 months’ probation and one day of jail, credited as time served, as part of her plea deal.
She was also fined $571 and ordered to see a psychologist weekly and a psychiatrist twice a month. She checked into a rehab facility following the arrest.
After wrapping up the legal case, Spears returned to Instagram to share: ‘This year has been quite interesting … I’ve never done so many arts and crafts and it’s sort of embarrassing ok so I might have went a bit coo coo in the nest when I honestly believed I could create my own stained glass ….’
She talked about the location she uses for the majority of her arts and crafts projects – the kitchen – and the significance behind the choice.
‘I have a lot of emotional issues that come up in my kitchen … I have no idea why,’ she said. ‘I guess that’s usually where we as family all come together to celebrate, pray and cook and well for some reason I did my crafts there.’
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